Feed Your Soul

Wake your soul with love in the morning
Feed your soul with love in the evening
Expand your soul with love on the weekend

Besides being one of my favorite tracks out there, “Love Is All I Got” – Crystal Fighters is an amazing track with catchy lyrics that reverb in your head and make you feel warm inside. Because who doesn’t want love? It’s also a good track to listen to in the morning while fighting off the urge to sleep or lie down on the couch; both of which sound extremely desirable when adapting to a polyphasic sleep schedule.

While I did add this song to my Spotify que at the time of writing this post, I started the morning off randomly with a playlist of mine. This led to some more Jamie Jones (“My Body“) and definitely helped get my mind going.

That being said, today is Day 3 of my second attempt at adapting to Everyman 3 (see prior posts if you are somehow reading this first). And when I woke up this morning I was actually more alert than I was waking yesterday or the day prior. I still waited until my second alarm came on, but that was only a minute after and so no oversleep happened. But it’s still important to nurture your mind while adapting to a new sleep schedule, as avoiding sleep sounds simple enough until your mind is ‘malnourished’, not just by a physical health standard (sleep deprivation) but from soul enriching activity.

Now whether you believe in an actual soul or are like me and simply use that to reference your mind, your inner being, “feeding your soul with love” is necessary to life period. For myself and many others, feeding the soul with soulful music is a great way to nurture. It can fill you with energy, emotion, and even help you to heal pain. If you don’t believe that already you probably haven’t gone through A) A really bad break-up or B) Tried adapting to a polyphasic sleep schedule and listened to Shiba San in the morning.

If you have gone through either of these, you understand how important music can be in life. Music is a language of the soul, created by the soul for the soul. It is a representation of an artist and the emotions they felt at the time of creating their song. It shares these emotions with fans who share similar emotions, and together the artist and fan create a relationship that transcends time or even getting to meet one another physically. It allows people all over the world and throughout generations to make a connection with not only with the artist that created the track but all the others fans who connect to it as well. Music, especially when listened to or performed live, is one of the most beautiful experiences one can enjoy. It sometimes makes life feel worth or even possible living.

So why is it that we sometimes neglect to feed our soul with something it so desperately craves? And don’t say your soul does not crave music when majority of people literally turn the radio on to listen to the same songs over and over and over and over and over and over again (sorry, this really annoys me. To hear the same songs repeated again and again every day over generations when, HEY!, there’s 8 more tracks in that album you’re using . . .). If you still don’t believe me, look into the Divje Babe Flute or any other prehistoric flute in case you believe this one happens to be a “bone chewed through by a hyena”.

Anyway, music has been an important aspect to the lives of humans all throughout history. Used the right way it can change lives and make a huge impact on the world. No wonder it helps me get through my adaption or why I am confused as to why people listen to the radio rather than make their own CDs or stream a better selection (laziness?). But straying away from my hatred of the American radio, I had an interesting realization yesterday.

This isn’t it, but being an Aspie it is comforting to read the experiences of other Aspies. Most of us grew up alone with this part of our selves (I won’t call it a condition), especially those like me that never received an official diagnosis or were not even suspected to have Asperger’s by those around them. It helps with the frustrations of what we each go thru as we often share very similar experiences despite Asperger’s being on a spectrum. That being said, it seems Asperger’s is still a very underdeveloped research topic and it is also only in recent years that Asperger’s has grown with awareness. It seems that while I was living under a rock, Asperger’s Awareness has soared dramatically in the last 2 years at least. Granted I did start to see more people coming out publicly with it over time, but now there are tons of Youtubers, Bloggers, and even TED Talks addressing the concept. It seems dramatic to me as I’ve been aware of my Asperger’s or more specifically what to call it for 10 years now and back then people were always very resistant to the idea if they had even heard about it.

Now I am trying to be more open about my Asperger’s and have even asked a recent new friend if she was familiar with Asperger’s only to find out she knew about, had friends with it, and even thought she was an Aspie at one point (and she very well could be on the autistic spectrum as many others secretly are). So it was also interesting to me when I found many questions on Quora in relation to Asperger’s and it was an answer to this question that led me to a new realization: “What does it feel like to have Asperger syndrome?”

And it’s not the obvious answer that we don’t feel, we’re robots (punny? Seriously we do feel though, just different things and in different ways.). It was when someone described the physical sensations of being an Aspie. Not in a bad way, but in a cool way. Yeah that’s right, being autistic can be cool. Here’s what they said:

“There are some really cool things about having Asperger’s. My sensory sensitivity means I’ve enjoyed sunsets to the point of tears and certain physical experiences to the point of extreme ecstasy. Certain kinds of music absolutely transports me and making music heals me.”

Hmm. Sounds pretty neat huh? First I will say that I have acknowledged the strengths and pros of being an Aspie before, and even pondered how I became a massage therapist, one of the most physical and empathetic jobs in existence. But I did not tie in how music makes me feel physically with me being an Aspie. Yes, I get tingly sensations that even neurotypicals can probably relate to. But I thought this was simply how happy music had made me, not that there was something actually physically different. But in retrospect, I do feel I enjoy music on a very deep level that may be difficult for others to achieve. I think anyone who enjoys electronic music is already doing this as well, but from an early age I was never interested in pop music or any of it’s subgenres (pop rap, pop hip hop, pop rock, you name it). I typically cannot stand commercial hits and I often know nothing about current celebrities, whether they are musicians or actors/actresses.

Like I mentioned in yesterday’s blog however, as a child electronic music spoke to me on a different level. I would listen to The Chemical Brothers all the time, on the way to school, in my room, and no matter where I was they invoked the very same feeling in me that they do today. A sense of well-being, a warmth in body that spreads and leads to my skin vibrating with sensations that make the hair on my arms and neck stand on end. It’s such a beautiful feeling that brings me close to tears, even now as I listen to Wonders Of The Deep (seriously, I just had to take a deep breath and appreciate the moment). Their music videos and performances only heighten this experience.

I am probably not the only one who enjoys The Chemical Brothers or another artist to this level, but as someone with selective interests and odd physical tendencies I have to say I truly love The Chemical Brothers. Being someone that struggles with actual words at least when it comes to emotions, music is an entire other language that speaks to me and I can speak it fluently as well. And when I hear The Chemical Brothers I receive nothing but absolute love and empowerment. As a child I did not even know what LSD was but listening their music I promise you I felt like I was on drugs – and I still do listening to them today. This is ironic too, considering one of their tracks is titled “Get Yourself High” in which the chorus is:

“Don’t rely on us, to get you high.

Just get yourself high!”

But The Chemical Brothers did help me on my journey to get myself high without even needing drugs (or people). And for that I am grateful to them for the music and love they spread. If Asperger’s is the reason I feel music so intensely and like the Quora poster why making music heals me or nature can move me to such emotion, then I am grateful for that too.

Whether you are an Aspie or neurotypical, I hope you listen to great tunes after reading this and remember to feed your soul with love; especially when trying to overcome a difficult challenge in your life such as adopting to a new sleep schedule. (If you found some tracks in this post that you hadn’t heard before or in awhile, that’s awesome too!)

Happy jammin’!

– Indi (:

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